When you least expect it

Juicelog Mon 060306: You know when you get one of those days which catches you unaware, I absolutely had mine today. Within the space of a day my feelings about someone I know (let’s call him “H”) has changed quite drastically. I am not going into specific details about “H” coz I’m currently in that space which is somewhere in between feeling perplexed and vulnerable.
“H” is someone I haven’t known for a long time and is somebody I usually meet within a social setting intermittently. When I first met “H” I didn’t have any physical and emotional feelings for him but I now find myself going through that silly teenager infatuation phase. It doesn’t make sense as this person on paper doesn’t tick all the boxes on the Juicemaster’s ever growing shopping list so to speak. As a self assured individual who likes to be in control of my emotions I don’t like being where I am at the moment. The lust thing I can handle but liking someone and having strong feelings is a much trickier thing to deal with.

Went for a jog today in the mid afternoon sunshine after my melon breakfast to gather my thoughts. As I haven’t been jogging in ages I felt a big sensation of exhilaration after my run. My mini sprint didn’t do much for my mental state of mind but it did give me a big natural adrenalin rush (something which I haven’t felt for a very long time). Spent all day trying to convince myself that this all can be attributed to the ketchup effect. This post will most probably come across as being too cryptic but then given the current situation and circumstances I don’t want to give too much away until I’ve given this a bit more thought.