5 Jun 2006

Delete

Juicelog Mon 050606: Back late last week I made a decision not to forgo a friendship. Reviewing my boot list is a task I customarily carry out at the end of each year. This whole situation came about when my friend sent me a text message that read:

“Hasta la vista. Hitting the delete button now”

Friend is not a word I would used to describe this person (who will now be referred to as MP) that I had met about nine years ago. MP is more of a fuck buddy who I would meet up with every now and again (which has averaged out to be 1.11 times per year).


When I first knew MP he was working as cloakroom attendant, doing some voluntary work with a few GCSE’s to his name. Now he is working as a research officer, about to embark on his third degree and is looking to become Sir Menzies speechwriter. Watching all this happen to him in the space of nine years is pretty impressive.

The thing that I think I found too off-putting was the complexity of MP’s personality. I have come to the realisation that as much as I enjoyed his company I can’t make any emotional connection with him at all. Physically I don’t have any sexual feelings that I did have when I first met him. Even though I can’t pinpoint the exact specifics about why I don’t want him in my life anymore, there have been a few occasions where I have found his self importance to annoy me.

On receiving his text message I felt sad because of the loss but joyful because I gained an extra 6KB of memory in my phone book.

2 comments:

Anonymous said...

I was reflecting on the pruning of the social vine only a few weeks ago. Hell, I might even write a blog entry about it!

I definitely have a policy now of being very careful about acquiring new friends and being choosy about the ones I do have. There is only so much time to lavish on social grooming and I like to use that time well. Generally, I try very hard not to get on with new people I meet, particularly work people, and if something clicks despite my radiating waves of icy coldness then they must be worth getting involved with!

Juicemaster J said...

Is your vine really that bushy that it needs to be trimmed?